February 20, 2018

I woke up, read my Bible, and walked the path of taking the girls home from school, even though they had track meets so I couldn’t pick them up.

Then, I went to Bible study, came home, and worked on The Mask; Her Aid.

February 19, 2018

The kids didn’t have school today because of President’s Day, so I took them to Chick-fil-A to use their calendar cards! This month’s treat was an ice cream cone! I did this after waking up and reading my Bible.

When I got home, I decided to copy all my old Facebook messages with Anna-Marie and Shelby to Microsoft Word so I could read them all. Mostly for the purpose of finding important dates that I know I’ll find through the chat, like when I started listening to BarlowGirl again and when I told them about my self-harm struggle.

When I finally finished with that, I worked on Jenna’s chapter of The Mask; Her Aid and finally finished it. I’m so close to finishing this book! I’m so excited! And nervous! And all the feels!

I’ve also been watching interviews of Leighton Meester, Selena Gomez, and Dylan O’brien, because I love them! And it gives me the illusion of binge-watching something without giving up too much time!

I also finally got my “Why” cover by Sabrina Carpenter to upload today!

February 16, 2018

I woke up and read my Bible. Then, I walked the girls to the apartment and went to play basketball. We ate dinner here and then I took them home. I watched several Selena Gomez videos. And I worked a lot on The Mask; Her Aid. I’m about halfway done with editing! Then I’ll be ready to publish! 🙊 Also, Dylan O’Brien is ADORABLE and I love him!

February 15, 2018 – Monte Carlo

I’ve been on a Leighton Meester and Selena Gomez kick lately. They just, they seem like such genuine people and they’re hilarious. So, naturally, I had to watch their movie Monte Carlo. 🇲🇨 Idk why I don’t watch this movie more often! It’s so cute and inspiring! It’s a lovely reminder always to be yourself, never to be afraid to take chances, and as Ghandi said, “Be the change you want to see in the world.”

At the end of the movie, when Grace (Gomez) went to Romania 🇷🇴 to volunteer at the orphanage, I was inspired. With a sense of longing, I thought, “I want to make a difference like that.”

Then, I smiled and looked at my computer. “You are silly! That’s why you’re writing The Mask; Her Aid.” Oh! Right! Haha.

Before that, when Meg (Meester) was in Machu Picchu with her boyfriend, I felt a sudden wave of wanderlust. So, I might start going on adventures to Fredericksburg, Austin, places in San Antonio, and stuff like that soon. Or, I might just wait and hope I get to go on book or music tours some time soon! Haha. We’ll see!

Anyway, I woke up this morning and read my Bible. Then, I walked Lydia and Naomi to the apartment before driving them home after waiting 20 minutes for them after practice went over. Once home, I started working on The Mask; Her Aid some more. I now officially have five chapters finished and ready to be published after I read the book in whole! Whoo!

After watching Monte Carlo, I also posted on Instagram.

Pain and sorrow. Joy and laughter. Those are strange and curious concepts. When I was in high school, I rarely laughed out loud. I would smile and sometimes laugh quietly to myself, but I rarely laughed out loud. I thought, maybe that’s just who I was. I was the girl who laughed quietly, while everyone else laughed out loud. Today, I was watching the movie #MonteCarlo starring @selenagomez @itsmeleighton & @katiecassidy. I smiled during the movie as I laughed out loud several times. It didn’t occur to me why I found so much joy in laughing out loud, until after the movie. In high school, I battled depression. Now, I’m happy. There is joy and hope in my heart that I never expected to find high school, but I did. I watched, for the second or third time, a silly, yet charming & inspiring movie and lol’d my way through it. That is a miracle in and of itself. So, this is me telling you, whoever you are that needs to hear this, that you matter, pain fades, depression is overcome by joy, and one day YOU will laugh out loud too! ❤️💔 #itgetsbetter

Then, I decided to post a YouTube video touching on the subject of “It Gets Better” too! It’s been a productiveday!

February 14, 2018 – Happy Valentine’s Day!

I recorded a cover of Emily Osment’s Average Girl since it gets stuck in my head every year! Haha. I hadn’t played it before and recorded it one shot, so it’s not perfect, but it’s not bad either! Haha.

I worked some more on The Mask; Her Aid. And I wrote and edited (using Garage Band) the music for “Burning up a Sun.” I wrote the words exactly four years on the 11th of this month! That’s kind of cool!

I also read my Bible and walked the girls home from school!

February 12, 2018

I woke up feeling really good today! I surrendered my relationship status to God again yesterday. Today I woke up and did my weekly scale and inches check. I lost a point and an inch this past week! 😁 Then, i read my Bible. I walked Lydia and Naomi to my apartment from school and then drove them home because my back hurts. Then, I came home and did Tai Chi and sciatica Aimed yoga! It felt so good! I also started editing the Mask Her Aid and finally watched Country Strong again! Man, that movie is depressing!

January 25, 2018 – Sleep and Money Make the World Go ‘Round

I woke up this morning and I didn’t read my Bible, but I’m going to right now before bed. I did do like 10 or so minute workout on my stationary bike. While doing that, I watched 7th Heaven. Then, I decided to figure out my bills while watching 7th Heaven. It took ALL day, but that’s okay! ☺️ I finally have it figured out and I know how much I need to get paid to pay my bills! I think I might have to go back to Chase. At least I know what to do there and I’ll get paid decent money. Idk… 🤷🏼‍♀️ Anyway, when I was finally finished, I started working on Lauren Bump’s chapter for The Mask; Her Aid. I honestly think this one might be the easiest to write. We’ll see. Anyway, now it’s time to read some Bible and go to bed!

January 22, 2018 – Downward Spiral

I woke up and read my Bible. I also put homemade beef fajitas with bell peppers and onions in the crockpot! It’s so yummy! Then, I rode my stationary bike while watching 7th Heaven.

I made it through most of Mary’s downward spiral today and I felt personally attacked! 🙈 I mean, the only part I can identify with is not going to college and being unemployed, but still! Haha. I’m not in a bad place though. I have money saved. I’ll be getting my tax refund hopefully sooner than later and I’m not bumming it during unemployment. I’m using this time to rewatch the show I’ve been wanting to watch again for a decade! More importantly, I’m finally writing my book! I legit think The Mask; Her Aid will be ready for publishing sooner than later!

At the rate I’m writing, I should be done by at least mid February, but I’m hoping to write twice as much per day, so maybe even by the end of the month! Who knows?

I was just reminded by Twitter that I forgot about The Bachelor tonight and Riverdale last week! 🙊 I need to watch Riverdale tomorrow and then the Bachelor!

I also need to cut my potatoes and put them in the crockpot to make fries. If this works, I could save $6-10 a week on food and eat healthier because it’s homemade!

January 20, 2017 – Still Sitting at Home All Day

Today, I woke up and read my Bible. Then, I watched 7th Heaven and worked on The Mask; Her Aid. With Jacob’s help, I also worked on the cover of Royal Secrets: America’s Princess. I also chatted for a few minutes with Amber, Deborah, and Savannah while they were over here to watch Grey’s Anatomy.

January 19, 2018 – What Do I Want to Do with My Life?

I woke up and read my Bible. Then, I scrolled through Pinterest for a while. After that, I watched 7th Heaven and working on The Mask; Her Aid.

In 7th Heaven, Lucy decided she wants to volunteer with Habitat for Humanity. I realized, that I would like to do that too. So, I went to their website and found that they are hiring. I was simply going to volunteer, but then I applied to be a part-time grant writer. I don’t know exactly what the job entails, but it doesn’t require any experience I don’t have, so I applied. Maybe, this is where I can work and help people? It only calls for 27 hours a week, so that’s cool! I think I’ll also apply to be a part-time cashier at Habitat Home Center. It’s not the one by the San Antonio event center, and it’s half an hour from where I live, but it’s also a 27-hour job and it pays $13 an hour. Who knows if I’ll get or like either job, but it feels good to want to do something. I hope to at least look into volunteering with them on building houses. We did it for youth group once and I absolutely LOVED it! I’ve always loved working with wood and doing manual labor. I may not be able to do as much after hurting my back, but if that’s true, I’m sure I can do something. It’s up to the Lord now.