February 19, 2018

The kids didn’t have school today because of President’s Day, so I took them to Chick-fil-A to use their calendar cards! This month’s treat was an ice cream cone! I did this after waking up and reading my Bible.

When I got home, I decided to copy all my old Facebook messages with Anna-Marie and Shelby to Microsoft Word so I could read them all. Mostly for the purpose of finding important dates that I know I’ll find through the chat, like when I started listening to BarlowGirl again and when I told them about my self-harm struggle.

When I finally finished with that, I worked on Jenna’s chapter of The Mask; Her Aid and finally finished it. I’m so close to finishing this book! I’m so excited! And nervous! And all the feels!

I’ve also been watching interviews of Leighton Meester, Selena Gomez, and Dylan O’brien, because I love them! And it gives me the illusion of binge-watching something without giving up too much time!

I also finally got my “Why” cover by Sabrina Carpenter to upload today!

February 15, 2018 – Monte Carlo

I’ve been on a Leighton Meester and Selena Gomez kick lately. They just, they seem like such genuine people and they’re hilarious. So, naturally, I had to watch their movie Monte Carlo. 🇲🇨 Idk why I don’t watch this movie more often! It’s so cute and inspiring! It’s a lovely reminder always to be yourself, never to be afraid to take chances, and as Ghandi said, “Be the change you want to see in the world.”

At the end of the movie, when Grace (Gomez) went to Romania 🇷🇴 to volunteer at the orphanage, I was inspired. With a sense of longing, I thought, “I want to make a difference like that.”

Then, I smiled and looked at my computer. “You are silly! That’s why you’re writing The Mask; Her Aid.” Oh! Right! Haha.

Before that, when Meg (Meester) was in Machu Picchu with her boyfriend, I felt a sudden wave of wanderlust. So, I might start going on adventures to Fredericksburg, Austin, places in San Antonio, and stuff like that soon. Or, I might just wait and hope I get to go on book or music tours some time soon! Haha. We’ll see!

Anyway, I woke up this morning and read my Bible. Then, I walked Lydia and Naomi to the apartment before driving them home after waiting 20 minutes for them after practice went over. Once home, I started working on The Mask; Her Aid some more. I now officially have five chapters finished and ready to be published after I read the book in whole! Whoo!

After watching Monte Carlo, I also posted on Instagram.

Pain and sorrow. Joy and laughter. Those are strange and curious concepts. When I was in high school, I rarely laughed out loud. I would smile and sometimes laugh quietly to myself, but I rarely laughed out loud. I thought, maybe that’s just who I was. I was the girl who laughed quietly, while everyone else laughed out loud. Today, I was watching the movie #MonteCarlo starring @selenagomez @itsmeleighton & @katiecassidy. I smiled during the movie as I laughed out loud several times. It didn’t occur to me why I found so much joy in laughing out loud, until after the movie. In high school, I battled depression. Now, I’m happy. There is joy and hope in my heart that I never expected to find high school, but I did. I watched, for the second or third time, a silly, yet charming & inspiring movie and lol’d my way through it. That is a miracle in and of itself. So, this is me telling you, whoever you are that needs to hear this, that you matter, pain fades, depression is overcome by joy, and one day YOU will laugh out loud too! ❤️💔 #itgetsbetter

Then, I decided to post a YouTube video touching on the subject of “It Gets Better” too! It’s been a productiveday!

February 12, 2018

I woke up feeling really good today! I surrendered my relationship status to God again yesterday. Today I woke up and did my weekly scale and inches check. I lost a point and an inch this past week! 😁 Then, i read my Bible. I walked Lydia and Naomi to my apartment from school and then drove them home because my back hurts. Then, I came home and did Tai Chi and sciatica Aimed yoga! It felt so good! I also started editing the Mask Her Aid and finally watched Country Strong again! Man, that movie is depressing!

February 8, 2018

It’s Allie, Holly, Naomi, and Abigail’s birthday!

I woke up, Rose my bike to Anson Jones and back. I was trying to see Naomi, but the goober didn’t come out and say hi like she said she would! Then, I drove to the house to tell Abigail happy birthday and watch the kids for a little while so mom could buy them pizza. After that, I went to watch Naomi’s last basketball game of the season. They lost, but she’s a beast! Then, we went with Dad and Lydia to Chick-fil-A for her birthday.

When I came home, I punched my punching bag for 10 minutes, then did 15 minutes of Tai Chi! Dude, I LOVE Tai chi! It’s amazing!

Then, I somehow ended up watching interviews of Leighton Meester. 🤷🏼‍♀️ haha. Which led me to post this on Twitter:

I watched the first season of Gossip Girl in high school, then decided to watch the series a few years ago, but realized (after trying to watch it several times) halfway through it is NOT a show I should be watching! But… sometimes I just really want to finish watching it! ☹️