April 30, 2018

I woke up and read my Bible.

I went to the bank before doing Uber Eats. I was trying to go to Starbucks to wait for UE prime time at 11, but it was on base, so I stopped by GCS and chatted with Mr. Gaines for a few minutes. It was nice. 🙂 I still don’t miss school though!

I drove uber eats for 3 hours, came home to eat and pick Lydia, then Naomi.

Went back out to drive for a few more hours. I made $40 in 5 hours, so about $7.75 an hour. Not bad considering most of the job is me sitting in my car listening to music and wearing whatever I want! 🙂

I called about being a carriage driver downtown; unfortunately they Yellow Rose isn’t hiring right now. They’re keeping my number on file though in case they need/want to hire someone else. 🙂

April 29, 2018

I woke up and went to church.

Then we had a church picnic at the park.

I went to H-E-B after that.

Went to Nanny and Papa’s house for rest and supper. Jacob, Naomi, and I played Scrabble.

I worked on Mal’s POV of MG.

I came home and wrote “Unexpected Ride.”

Time for bed. It’s almost midnight again. 🙃

April 26, 2018

I woke up, read my Bible, worshipped, and took a nap after Jason said he’s sick and couldn’t meet me for work.

I woke up again and walked to Nanny’s to get my Amazon package. It was my Braves hat.

I came home, worked on my budget, and watched the Astros game.

I moved all the stuff off the patio, because all of a sudden we can’t have things out there. I deconstructed my box and threw it away.

I joined a bunch of survey sites to get paid.

April 25, 2018 – Electricity?

I woke up and read my Bible.

I worked on my budget and watched American Idol and Relative Race.

The lights went out, but I think it might have just been the rain. They came right back on when I flipped the breakers inside and haven’t gone off since, not even after I showered.

Ciara came over.

I drove to get Lydia and Naomi because it was raining.

I came back home and continued working on my budget while finishing Boy Meets World and starting Girl Meets World.

April 24, 2018

I woke up and read some bible verses.

I did some training for work.

I went to AT&T to add my business line.

I drove down Potranco and military to find some more businesses.

I worked on my budget.

I worked out.

I stressed out about not being able to pay rent.

I went to bible study. Apparently, I hadn’t composed myself, because they immediately knew something was wrong. I shared that I was stressing about rent this month, since I budgeted for mid May, but had to pay Savannah’s rent last month and now don’t have enough. As the evening continued, I grew more and more at peace. I even wrote a song, “The Promises You Yield” on my way home.

Now it’s bed time! Ciara’s supposed to come over tomorrow at noonish. 🙂

April 23, 2018

I woke up and went to work. Jason and I drove around for 3 hours going into businesses on Potranco to offer our benefits.

I came home and worked on my contact list for work.

I picked up Lydia and we watched A Royal Winter. Then, I we picked up Naomi. At the entrance to the neighborhood, Papa found us and let us ride in the back of his truck to his house.

I walked the long way home. Then showered and watched American Idol while creating a working list of plans to travel to Tennessee, New York, and DC, possibly with Emily and Akina.

Now I’m going to bed.

April 22, 2018

Today, I woke up and went to church for the 9am service and served in youth during the 11am service.

Then, I spent the afternoon with Akina. We ate Panera, then Orange Leaf, and went to Target.

I ran into Gen and Josh at HEB while grocery shopping after hanging out with Akina.

Then, I went to Walmart and got gas and a car wash at HEB.

I wrote a blog post about worship after that, but haven’t posted it, because I’m tired and want to make sure it’s coherent, so I’ll read it tomorrow after work.

April 21, 2018

I woke up and worked on organizing my worship music playlists.

I took Lydia, Naomi, and Abby to Chick-fil-A, to see The Miracle Season, and to Target.

The Miracle Season was really good! 🙂 I’ll for sure be buying it and watching it at least as often as I watch all the other inspirational sports movies I love! 😁

AT&T came and said the reason we keep having issues is because there’s something wrong with their connection. It should be fixed by Wednesday. 🤞🏼🙏🏼

Abraham (The Bright Stranger Bible Study)

A few weeks ago, my friend and I started studying the Gospels. We’re not quite doing it in a traditional way though. First, we’re starting with the lineage of Christ. That means, we’re starting way back to the beginning of the list. Matthew first states Abraham as the first ancestor of Christ, so that’s where we’re starting. I’ve decided to write blog posts about Christ’s lineage as we go through each relative. This post is about Abraham. Abraham’s story can be found in Genesis 11-25. He’s also mentioned in several other passages of the New and Old Testaments.

Abraham is known as a man of faith. He has so much faith that not only is he mentioned in the “Hall of Faith” in Hebrews 11, but the Lord also “counted him as righteous because of his faith” in Genesis 15:6. Though he was a man of faith, he was also human. He had his struggles. He struggled with lying and doubt. We’ll touch on some of his strong suits now.

Abraham was a man of faith. Several times he can be seen building altars to the Lord. He builds these alters for two reasons. The first reason is as an immediate act of praise and worship. God has said or done something to prove his faithfulness, so Abraham immediately thanks him for His goodness. The second reason is as what we now call an “Ebenezer Stone.” He uses these alters as signs of God’s past faithfulness. He wants to be able to look at them and be reminded that God is faithful to fulfill His promises.

We need to be like Abraham. When something good happens in our lives, we need to remember how and why they have happened. Good only comes to us because God chooses to give it to us. After all, James 1:17 does say, “Every good and perfect gift comes from above.” Not only does acknowledging the Giver of gifts make us joyful and grateful in the moment, but it also reminds us to be joyful and grateful in the future. In times when it seems like God isn’t listening or that He isn’t even with us, looking back on our Ebenezer stones can help us keep our faith in God’s goodness.

Abraham also demonstrates his faith through his interactions with and for Lot. First, when his and Lot’s herdsman started fighting with each other, Abraham showed grace, faith, and selflessness when he interceded. He offered Lot the pick of the land to avoid further conflict. He could have simply said, “You stay here, and I’ll go over there.” Instead, he let Lot pick where he wanted to go first. Abraham deserved the best land. He was promised the best land and was the one who brought Lot with him, but he gave it up for Lot.

Later, he interceded on Lot’s behalf when God told him He would be destroying Sodom and Gomorrah. Abraham cared about his nephew, so he begged God not to destroy the city if He could find ten people who were righteous. God agreed. When he didn’t find ten righteous people, he proceeded to destroy the cities. But, he also saved Lot and his daughters. He did this for Abraham’s sake, but he also did it for Lot’s sake. Lot was a foolish man, but he still held some of Abraham’s wise teaching in his heart. So, the Lord saved him from His wrath.

We could all learn from Abraham’s interactions with Lot. We all have at least one family member who we may not always be on the best terms with. This person may be selfish or arrogant. Prideful or narcissistic. Whatever it may be. As Christians, whether the other person is or isn’t a Christian, we need to respond like Abraham. We need to be selfless and graceful. We need to be the first ones to act in peace and restoration. It’s hard and it may not fix everything, but at the very least it will help us find healing one way or the other.

As faithful as he was though, Abraham also worried and doubted sometimes. Twice he lied to two different powerful kings about Sarah being his wife. While he did tell the truth about her being his sister, they were half-siblings (and that was legal and normal at the time), she was primarily his wife. He feared what might happen to him if he brought his beautiful wife before the kings though, so he lied about her full identity instead of trusting God to protect him.

Later, Abraham doubted God’s faithfulness not once, but twice. First, he doubted that the Lord would give him and Sara a son at all. So, he used Sara’s servant as means to getting the son he was promised. This was a man who had seen God’s faithfulness many times but failed to trust Him this time. He couldn’t believe that in his and Sarah’s human strength they could conceive a child, so they took action into their own hands. Abraham conceived a child with Sarah’s servant. In their culture, that meant the child be considered Sarah’s. Except it wasn’t. The child belonged to Hagar and Sarah resented her for it.

Many years later, the Lord came in person to tell Abraham that Sarah would give him a son. They still didn’t believe Him. Sarah even laughed. How could a couple who had seen God’s faithfulness time and time again not have faith that He would provide a son for them? They were human. No human is perfect and we all have doubts sometimes. Even through our doubts though, God’s promises never fail. Sarah did become pregnant and birthed Abraham a son named Isaac.

Isaac was Abraham greatest pride and joy. His son meant everything to Him. God wanted to make sure this was true, so He tested Abraham’s faith to the ultimate limit. In Genesis 22 He said, “Take your son, your only son—yes, Isaac whom you love so much—…and sacrifice him as a burnt offering on one of the mountains, which I will show you.” Abraham did love Isaac very much, but He loved God even more and He also had great faith in the Lord. So, Abraham took Isaac to a mountain as a sacrifice.

As they walked, Isaac asked, “Where is the sheep for the burnt offering?”

Abraham answered, “God will provide a sheep for the burnt offering, my son.”

Abraham knew that God would not ask him to kill someone, even for a holy sacrifice, but he obeyed Him anyway. He went to the mountain with everything he needed for a sacrifice, except a lamb. He tied Isaac up and lain him on the alter. Just as he was going to sacrifice his son, God called out to him to stop him. Abraham sighed in relief as God told him not to kill his son.

You see, God didn’t want Abraham to sacrifice Isaac in a literal sense. What he wanted was for him to sacrifice his son on the alter of his heart. He wanted to know that, as important as he was to Abraham, Isaac wasn’t becoming an idol for him. Abraham’s faithfulness to go through the motions of sacrificing his son showed God what He wanted to see. Abraham was in fact more faithful to God than his son.

Do you have that kind of faith? Do you have the kind of faith to sacrifice your greatest pride and joy? If God asked you to sacrifice your hopes and dreams for Him, then would you? I ask myself this question a lot, mostly when reading or hearing the story of Abraham and Isaac. Abraham literally dreamed for one hundred years about having a son. Then, when he finally had his son, God asked him to sacrifice him. Without even blinking, Abraham acted in obedience and then provided another sacrifice for him.

I’ve spent my whole life dreaming of getting married and having kids. I often have to ask myself if I can and will sacrifice those dreams for the Lord. I ask myself if I have. Have I sacrificed and surrendered those dreams to the Lord? Am I willing to give up my dreams of being a wife and mother if God asks me to? I like to think I am. I hope I am. I know I’ve spent a lot of days praying about it, but I won’t really know if it’s true unless it comes to pass. Then, if and when God does give me a husband and family, I’ll have to sacrifice a specific man and any of my children on the alter of my heart to the Lord. I’ll be happy and excited and joyful, but I’ll have to make sure I love the Giver more than the gift. That’s what Abraham had to do.

What we can learn from Abraham is to be men and women of great faith. We can learn that even men and women of great faith struggle with their own sins. But, we must also learn to combat our sin struggle with faith and scripture. As long as we are on this earth, we will not be perfect, but we can strive for perfection. We can accept that we will sin, but that doesn’t mean we accept the sin. It means we accept we are imperfect, but that we ask the Lord to help us through our imperfections. We can also learn how to interact with family. We can learn from Abraham how to be peacemakers in less than peaceful situations. We can also learn not to hold anything in our lives higher than we hold the Lord.

April 7, 2018

I woke up and read my Bible. While eating my egg, bacon, and spinach wrap breakfast taco I found maggots all over the kitchen and living room floor. I had forgotten about putting beef if the trash several days ago. That explains why I’ve found so many flies the past few days…

I spent 8 to 10 hours Raiding, sweeping, mopping, and disinfecting every room in the house! I clean the bathrooms and bedrooms too! I may never buy raw meat again! Or meat at all if I can’t eat in one sitting! I may even become a vegetarian for a while!

Maggots will be the stars of my nightmares for a very long time! I’ve definitely been thanking the Lord a bunch today for Heaven, so I don’t have to go to hell! *skin crawls*

April 5, 2018 – I’m A Duck Now! 🦆

I woke up, read my Bible, and watched American Idol while working on my nutrition before going to Aflac to get my license and sign their contract.

I came home, changed, watched AI, and worked on my nutrition. Then, left to pick up Lydia who stayed with me until 7:30.

We went to H-E-B and while we were there, I ran into Sue of Rodney and “The Fox!” 😁 I was so excited! 😁 She gave me her email so we could stay connected! 😁❤️

Since I’ll be working for commissions at Aflac and don’t know how much I’ll be getting paid from week to week, I’ve decided not pay for anymore training with Jeremy. He’s awesome and I’m grateful for his help, but I can’t afford it right now. Besides, if I’m gonna make a real change in my life, then I need to work on motivating myself, so I started studying how to build my own full body work outs! I think it’ll be fun! 😁

April 3, 2018

I woke up, studying, ate some “brain food,” went to take my insurance test. I passed!

I came home, ate lunch, and left for my fingerprints.

I came home, snacked, and went to get Lydia. We watched The Greatest Showman while waiting for Naomi to get out of soccer practice.

I came back home, snacked, and went to Bible study. It was just Bill, the Mitchum’s, and me, but it was still good! 🙂

Then, I went to Walmart to get a few things.

April 2, 2018

I had my first session with Jeremy today! It hurt so good and was definitely what I was hoping for! It was like being in high school athletics again, but this time the coach is focused on me only! It’s intimidating but encouraging to know I’ll get it right because he’s showing me how!

Then, I picked up Lydia from school and brought her over here. I shower and we watched the first half of Descendants. Then, we picked up Naomi from soccer practice and watch most of the second half before going to the house so I could put the kids in bed for mom to watch March Madness finals.

I have my test tomorrow! I’m nervous! 🙈