People Always Leave–Part Two–God’s Plans

“People always leave.” That’s a phrase that basically became Peyton Sawyer’s life motto in One Tree Hill. As much as I hate to admit it; it’s also become one of my life mottos. Though, it’s meaning isn’t quite as cynical for me as it was for Peyton. For Peyton, it was a reason not to get close to people. For me, it’s just a fact of life. In school, in work, in church, and in life, people always leave. It’s sad and sometimes it’s hard, but it’s true. Throughout most of the series, people always leave Peyton, but in the sixth season, Peyton and her family were the ones who proved that people always leave. The same is true for me. I’ve always had friends leave me for various reasons, but this time I’m the one leaving. People left Peyton because of death, work, and to save themselves from various dangerous situations. I’d say those characters that left Peyton had justifiable reasons. People have left me because I live in Military City USA, because they needed to go off to college, and or because the Lord was calling them to leave. Again, they had justifiable reasons. I see that, which is why I’m not bitter about it; I just accept leaving as a part of life. Still, I never planned on being the one to leave. That’s the thing about plans though; “I can make my plans, but the Lord determines my steps.” Proverbs is full of great wisdom like that. I might make plans for myself, and they may be well-intended plans, but that doesn’t mean my plans match up with God’s plans.

On June 22, 2017, my boss came up to me and let me know that there was a job opening in a different department and asked me if I’d like to take it. Do you know what I said? I asked if I could have time to think about it, but that I’d probably say no. He knows me pretty well by now, so he hesitantly informed me that we didn’t have the luxury of waiting for an answer. They needed a decision right away. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not one to make spontaneous or last-minute decisions. I’m a planner. I like to know what’s going on before I commit to anything. So, again, I said I’d probably say no, but asked for more details just in case. Again, he answered hesitantly, because he didn’t really have any details for me, but he thought I’d do a good job in the new department. Again, I said probably not. Then, God halted me in my metaphorical steps.

If you haven’t been reading my other blog posts, then let me give you some backstory. On April 21st, 2017, just over two months before I was asked to change positions at work, I started writing a series called, Malachi Gregory. Mal’s story starts off with a new job opportunity. She doesn’t really want to take it, because she has to decide right away, she doesn’t know anything about what the job is, and she doesn’t like change without warning. Guess what, though. She feels like God is telling her to take the job even though every fiber of her being is fighting against it.

Now, back to me. I already told you I don’t like to make decisions last minute, especially without details. If you’ve read my other posts or if you know me at all, then you also know that I don’t like change, especially without warning. With that in mind, then I’m sure you can see where this is going. When I was sure that I was going to say no, God flashed into my mind, “Remember what you told Mal.” I had the pastor in my story tell Mal, “If God is calling you to do something that you don’t want to do, then know He has a far greater plan for you than you could ever plan for yourself. Listen to Him.” That’s not all though; I also had her best friend Bailey say, “It will help you grow your talents or gain new ones, but it will require leaving your comfort zone…You know you need to take this job.” I really wanted to react like my now five-year-old brother reacted when he was two and a half when I gave him three options: 1) Go outside. 2) Go to the living room. 3) Or you’re going in the corner.

John John in the Corner (7-14-14)

When God reminded me of what I told my character Mal, I wanted to pout in a corner like my brother did when I gave him options he didn’t like. It wasn’t fair that God was using my own writing against me. Instead of hiding in a corner though, or worse saying no, I surprised everyone and told my boss that I would take the position, even though the day before I had still been saying that I didn’t plan on leaving the department as long as I worked for the company. When God asks you to move, you move though.

I feel kind of bad though, because my boss even told me that when his boss asked him to ask me about taking the job, he said he didn’t want to because I’m his best person. Without the official title, I’m basically his assistant team leader—we call it floor support. More than being his go to person for support, I had also recently agreed to be a part of a buddy program to help new hires navigate their new job with us, so I had to tell another TL that I wouldn’t be able to help after all. She was my first TL on the job, so she was surprised that I said yes too, even though she was apparently the one who had suggested my name to the Department Leader. Perhaps more surprising, one of my closest friends, Stephanie, works in the department I’m leaving and I don’t think anyone thought I’d leave as long as she was still in the same department. Honestly, I didn’t think I would. I’ve never left anywhere as long as I’ve had a close friend still there, which is part of the reason why I’ve had to get used to the truth that people always leave. It’s not normal to stay in one place forever. It’s okay though, because I’m just moving across the hall, which means I’ll still be able to visit Stephanie, whom I’ve spoken of in several other posts, during my breaks just like I do now.

As if all the above isn’t enough reason to be surprised that I’m leaving when I thought I’d stay, let me give you more reason to be shocked. What little information my TL could provide me when telling me of this new job opportunity was that it would only be about 20% involved with people directly and that I would be able to get off work a little more than two hours earlier than normal. This would have been a huge blessing, because I’m an introvert and working so closely with people has really been starting to wear me down lately. Also because I refuse to miss church on Sundays and if I’m going to get up and go to church on my day off, then I’m going to go to the early service so I can get other things done after church—plus, my best friend goes to the first service, so obviously I have to too. Because I go to the 9:30am service on Sunday and work until 1:15am on Saturday nights, I don’t get a lot of sleep before church. With this new schedule, I’ll be able to sleep about 7+ hours before church instead of 3 to 5 hours, which is no more than half the amount of sleep I need to function. Still though, I didn’t want to say yes. Now I know why, because the people from the other department apparently misinformed my DL—we will be interacting with customers just as much with this new position as we will be with the old position. When I was told this, I was furious. I thought I was agreeing to this new position because it meant that I don’t have to deal with people anymore. Apparently not, but it’s too late now. God told me to take the job and I had already told people that He told me to, so I can’t back out now.

So, why’d I say yes? Why am I leaving when I thought I’d be the last to leave? Why am I proving that people always leave? Why am I doing something I really don’t want to do? For the same reason Bailey told Mal she needed to take the job, “Sometimes, you have to do what you don’t want to do to do what you do want to do.” When I had Bailey tell Mal that, I had her quote Mal’s grandfather who was really quoting my grandfather, aka Papa, who is probably quoting someone else. I tried getting an earlier schedule in the position I have now, but I was declined, so apparently, the only way I can get off earlier on Saturdays is if I take this new position. There’s more to it than that though. I’m not doing it for me. I’m not doing it because God asked me to do it. Also, because God flashed the picture below in my head when I started to throw a grownup tantrum over being misinformed about what I would be doing in my new position.

Trust Me

God wants to bless me in ways that I can’t possibly imagine, but in order for Him to do that, I have to trust Him and do as He asks. Is every change in life going to lead to prosperity and earthly blessings? No. In fact, we are promised that walking with Christ will be uncomfortable and challenging at times. Sometimes it’s just as bad as moving out of your comfort zone and saying yes when you really want to say no, maybe it’s taking up everything you own and moving halfway across the world, or maybe it’s dying at the hands of our enemies for the sake of martyrdom. Who knows? I don’t know, but I do know that since the moment Eve and Adam took a bite from the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, we have been promised a life of discomfort and challenges as long as we are on this earth, especially if we are followers of Christ. That being said, when we walk in the will of the Lord, we will be richly rewarded. If not here on earth where we temporarily reside, then in Heaven where we will wear crowns so adorned that no earthly body could ever support it.

That’s why I said yes. Because even though it’s cliché and often used out of context, Jeremiah 29:11 is also always true; “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord. “Plans to prosper you and not harm. Plans for a hope and a future.” So maybe God is asking me to climb out onto a limb I don’t want to climb onto. Maybe He’s asking me do the INFJ’s (my Myer’s Brigg’s Type) equivalent to jumping out of a plane without a parachute. It doesn’t matter, because I know that God’s plans are for me and that as long I live according to His will, then “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Oh, and because I’m super excited about my plans for Mal in my series, so if I, a flawed human author am excited about my own plans for my character, then how much more excited can I be for the plans our perfect Author and Creator of the Universe has for me? Pretty darn excited, I’d reckon.

So, yes, I am the one leaving this time. I am proving Peyton Sawyer correct when she says, “People always leave.” You know who doesn’t always leave, though? God. He even says as much in many verses including Deuteronomy 31:6, “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you, nor forsake you.” People may leave me and I may leave people, but as long as they and I am living according to God’s plan, then everything will be okay. Maybe me leaving means someone else can have a chance at leading floor support for my TL and maybe it gives someone else the opportunity to be a buddy to a new hire, someone who wouldn’t otherwise consider the role. Maybe I’m leaving departments, but that’s okay. It’s not like I won’t still be there for Stephanie whenever she needs me. It doesn’t mean that I won’t continue to invite her to hang out and or go to church. I’m still going to do those things, probably even more now since I won’t be able to see her at work as much. No matter what happens though, God is with me and He will provide someone else to fill the spots that I am leaving open and He will provide ways for Stephanie and me to hangout. This I trust, because God is a good God and He doesn’t leave us stranded. This I know, because He promised me that I will be getting a bigger teddy bear out of this deal than the tiny one that I love now.

PLL – Final Theory

Here’s my list of who will be declared as Uber A in tonight’s final episode of Pretty Little Liars. This is in no particular order.

1. Wilden – Because, who in Rosewood has ever hated the Liars as much as he did?

2. Toby (or a Toby Twin) – Of all the significant others, he’s the only one who hasn’t been around much this season and who has not had his story wrapped up yet.

3. Twincer – Because the last time I refused to include the theory I didn’t want to be true, it was true.

4. Mona – Just because I still think it’d be brilliant, especially now that she’s broken down.

5. Jason – His story still hasn’t been really wrapped up either.

6. Wren – Why was he so prominent all the time only to be swept under the rug never to return?

7. Melissa – Only because, her motive could be that since she knew about Spencer being a product of Peter’s infidelity, she wanted to get revenge on her.

Only 2 PLL Episodes Left!

We only have two episodes left until PLL is over forever! When Mona was revealed as A, I thought it was brilliant. Pretty much everything after that has been exactly the opposite of what I want to happen, especially the whole CeCe/Charles/Charolette plot. Keeping that in mind, I’m going to predict the possible end of Pretty Little Liars based on what seems plausible even though I really don’t want it to happen! These next theories are based on posts found and thoughts shared by my roommate and our friend.

Wilden is still alive. Wilden played a very important role in Charolette’s confession to the Lairs. Wilden’s face was also used as a mask. Is that relavent to the truth? Or was it just a scare tactic to throw off the Liars? It seems that no one in the history of Rosewood has hated the Lairs as much as Wilden did/does. Therefore, it could make a lot of sense if he were Uber A.

Spencer has a twin. How often do things happen with Spencer that don’t entirely make sense? Or that are just kind of weird? Hanna thought she dreamt of Spencer helping her. Why did Spencer care so much if Ezra said anything about her being seen with Wren? Why would anyone care if she was seen with him? It doesn’t seem to add up. Spencer’s scene with Toby, though it breaks my heart to say it, seemed a little too much like it could have been a copycat of Jessica, Peter, and Mary. Also, Marlene said she didn’t plan on the show ending like the series. All that means is that Ali doesn’t have a twin. That doesn’t mean another Liar can’t have one.
Mona is going to die. We all know this show is big on death, but not redemptive death, because everyone on this show has pretty much deserved to die or just got way too close to the truth. Mona on the other hand has done everything she can to redeem herself and also seems to be getting incredibly close to the truth! As far as redemptive deaths go, you really can’t get someone better or more fitting than Mona!
Here are my personal thoughts on Mona though: I want to say Mona is just trying to redeem herself by figuring out the game, because the girls don’t trust her, so she had to go behind their back. At the same time though, I still think it would be brilliant if it’s her as Uber A! She’s in our face! She was in our face the first time and and CeCe was in our face too! That or maybe, if there is a second set of twins, it could be Mona? Hanna did say she seems different… though that could just be the crazy shining through….?

Miss Aria You’re a Killer; Not Ezra’s Wife

What do we know about Aria?
2×22 – She’s good at keeping secrets.

3×07 – We’re pretty sure this was not only an acronym.

5×07 – Eddie Lamb recognized her and she freaked out.

7×15 – A has something BIG on Aria!

Based on the above information, let’s assume the following: Ezra Fitz got his under aged girlfriend, Aria Montgomery, pregnant, but she didn’t tell him, because she got an abortion. She got an abortion, because Ezra was under enough heat just for dating her, let alone getting her pregnant. To get the abortion, Aria went to Radley, because it’s basically a don’t ask, don’t tell kind of place where she knew secrets could be kept. Of course, she wouldn’t know for a while how many and dark of secrets Radley could keep, but she knew Radley could keep secrets. After her abortion, Mona found out; or CeCe found out and told Mona, because well they were both A at one point. Mona used this information as a scare tactic for Aria. A few months later, Eddie Lamb noticed Aria at Radley and she pretty much immediately freaked out. Let’s assume Eddie Lamb, who was a nurse at Radley, was there when Aria got her abortion. As Aria and Ezra started to work closer with Eddie, he disappeared. Let’s assume that’s for two reasons. 1) CeCe didn’t want him telling her secrets. 2) Uber A was saving Aria’s dirty little secret for a special occasion. Now, of course, we know that that special occasion was to get Aria to work with him/her. Maybe Uber A would have drawn Aria in sooner, but didn’t have the necessary evidence to reel her in? Idk, but he/she did wait. Of course, because Aria is the liar with the biggest heart–Emily is the most loyal, but Aria feels most deeply–A knew that with the right evidence, he/she could get Aria to do almost anything.

Or, we can get even darker…. what if Aria and Ezra really did kill someone? What if Eddie knew and she killed him too? Probably not, but you know… it is Rosewood!